September is finally here. I can't even believe it. I'm 37 weeks today. That's officially full term, even though we're still three weeks away from our due date. I think that's so crazy and kind of unfair that 37 weeks is considered full term. I wish they would just keep that a secret, so the terrible phrase "any day now" would never creep into anyone's head this early.
I told myself from the beginning that I would expect to go all the way to 40 weeks and not hope to go early. But the closer I've gotten to today, to 37 weeks, the more eager I am to hold my baby, the more I'm ready to be not pregnant anymore, and the more it creeps into my mind that I COULD possibly go early.
The thing that is so maddening about this time of your first pregnancy is that you just have no idea what to expect. You are conscious of every little ache or pain, wondering if it's nothing, or the start of something. You're paranoid about your water breaking at work, or at the grocery store, or not at all. People give you advice and tell you what happened to them, and as kindly meant as all that is, it kinda bugs. Because everyone and every pregnancy is different, and you just don't, and can't, know what to expect.
At my appointment yesterday I got "checked," which obviously isn't a ride on the merry-go-round, but I was anxious to get a clearer idea of where things are at. Well, I'm dilated to a one. Sorry for those of you who hate that kind of talk. I kind of do too. Not because it grosses me out but it's just pretty personal stuff. But that's what everyone always asks and so it's kind of the way it is. Anyway, I left my appointment feeling pretty good. I was maybe the tiniest bit disappointed that things aren't further along, but it's a start, and I really do need these next couple weeks to get things in order at home, to work, and of course I want her to come when she's ready.
So I've been fine all day today thinking she would just come around her due date, or maybe even after, which would not be my favorite thing, though not the end of the world. But of course, as September 1, my 37 week mark, comes to an end, the what ifs and the maybes creep back into my mind, and I wonder if it really could be "any day now."
I guess that's just the curse of being "full term."
7 comments:
Since I've seen you once this pregnancy, it blows my mind that you'll be a mom soon. But blows it in a warm, happy way.
How exciting! Pregnancy talk doesn't creep me out at all...I'm fascinated by it so tell me everything you want :) I kind of hate when people tell all their horror stories or what to expect too. I hope you feel great and enjoy the last few weeks of your life before she comes!
You look awesome!! I can't believe you are only 3 weeks away. I wish I still lived near you so that I could at least see your little one.
You are right, everyone's experiences are SO different and there is no way anyone can prepare you. The first time is something special, but also something unexpected. Whatever happens, it will be amazing and you'll have your own story to tell. And as miserable as the last couple of weeks are, they will fade to the background the second you hold your baby. Oh Vienna, there are few things more amazing than the first time you meet your baby.
She needs to bake until Sept. 23rd if you want her to be a Fall baby! :) We're so excited for her to come. It's going to be so much fun finally having a baby around!
Things will happen before you know it. And trust me you will know when they are happening. Just be glad you have made it to where you are. If you want to know anything, just ask. Like things you will need after the baby that you really didn't know about. But soon it will be over and then the real fun will begin.
Yay! I can't wait to see her! You seriously look so cute, Vienna. And I love your writing. Have I mentioned that before? I think I have. I'll mention it again. Your writing rocks. :)
so exciting and you looks FABULOUS! seriously, I can't believe it's coming so soon. I can't wait to meet her and hold her! i am SOOOO excited for you, there really is nothing better in the world then when you go into labor and have your baby, you'll know exactly what i mean, and hopefully it'll happen sooner rather than later :)
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